The fact that the copy in his own hand is missing for one. Some of my posts are more about Civil War generals than their wives. At that point, a six-pound cannon ball, probably fired by a gun of the Lynchburg Artillery, tore off his right leg and killed his horse. What makes my chosen profession so difficult is that women were not valued enough to have their history recorded and saved for us. How gladly would I wash out with my tears every little spot upon your happiness, and struggle with all the misfortune of this world, to shield you and my children from harm. Forgive my many faults, and the many pains I have caused you.
The memory of all the blissful moments I have enjoyed with you come crowding over me, and I feel most deeply grateful to God and you, that I have enjoyed them for so long. Our movement may be one of a few days duration and full of pleasure -- and it may be one of severe conflict and death to me. Sarah, I have unlimited confidence in your maternal care and your development of their characters. I cannot describe to you my feelings on this calm summer night, when two thousand men are sleeping around me, many of them enjoying the last, perhaps, before that of death—and I, suspicious that Death is creeping behind me with his fatal dart, am communing with God, my country, and thee. Not my will, but thine O God, be done.
He was then carried off the field and died a week later. True, I have been trained as a professional skeptic, but I had no preexisting desire to puncture the Ballou balloon. She died in 1917 and was buried next to Sullivan. If the dead can come back to this earth and flit unseen around those they loved, I shall always be near you; in the garish day and in the darkest night—amidst your happiest scenes and gloomiest hours—always, always; and if there be a soft breeze upon your cheek, it shall be my breath; or the cool air fans your throbbing temple, it shall be my spirit passing by. I thank Jay Ungar, Emma and Halie Danielson and all those who have fought and died for the cause.
As you can tell from those numbers, the Union suffered from a string of incredibly incompetent Generals while the South was lead by one of the greatest Generals in the history of the world, Robert E. For instance, the Battle of Antietam had approximately 3,600 killed out of approx. How thoughtless and foolish I have often been! The 2nd Rhode Island took little part in the afternoon battle, remaining in reserve and licking its wounds with Burnside's brigade. The Ballou Papers at the Rhode Island Historical Society contain two letters to Sarah dated July 14, 1861, a few days before the regiment marched off to battle in Virginia. And hard it is for me to give them up and burn to ashes the hopes of future years, when God willing, we might still have lived and loved together, and seen our sons grow up to honorable manhood around us. They have no known living descendants. I shall always be near you in the darkest night, The calm summer breeze is my song.
Sarah Hart Shumway, described as intelligent and proper, married Sullivan Ballou on October 15, 1855, and they lived in Smithfield, Rhode Island. Rewatching the series and looking up online about some of these soldiers from privates to generals has been so, so informing. Supposing they had disinterred the body of Colonel John Slocum, commanding the Rhode Islanders during the battle, the Confederates desecrated the body and dumped it in a ravine in the vicinity of the Sudley Methodist Church. He declares his love for Sarah and for his country in the poignant missive: Sarah, my love for you is deathless, it seems to bind me to you with mighty cables that nothing but Omnipotence could break; and yet my love of Country comes over me like a strong wind and bears me irresistibly on with all these chains to the battlefield. Your article gives me a more complete background of Sarah Ballou and appreciate your work on this profile. I have no misgivings about, or lack of confidence in, the cause in which I am engaged, and my courage does not halt or falter. But I still have a long list of women and events that involved women to write about.
Our movement may be one of a few days duration and full of pleasure - and it may be one of severe conflict and death to me. If it is necessary that I should fall on the battle-field for any country, I am ready. Till we part no more. So many women became widows and struggled after and survived. If the dead can come back to this earth and flit unseen around those they loved, I shall always be near you; in the gladdest days and in the darkest nights. I know how strongly American Civilization now leans upon the triumph of the Government, and how great a debt we owe to those who went before us through the blood and suffering of the Revolution.
Ballou was a major in the U. If I do not, my dear Sarah, never forget how much I love you, nor that, when my last breath escapes me on the battle-field, it will whisper your name. And how hard it is for me to give them up, and burn to ashes the hopes of future years, when, God willing, we might still have lived and loved together, and seen our boys grow up to honorable manhood around us. If I do not, my dear Sarah, never forget how much I love you, and when my last breath escapes me on the battlefield, it will whisper your name. And, perhaps more so, he also worried about what would happen to them should be killed in battle.
Stories have circulated that Rhode Island Governor William Sprague retrieved the trunk and returned it to Sarah. Maybe their spirits will be there tonight. Although, she thought it was Slokum, not Ballou that had been mutilated; it was later found it had been Ballou. O Sarah, I wait for you there! The Aftermath In early March 1862, word reached Washington that the Confederates were abandoning their lines around Bull Run to protect Richmond from the Army of the Potomac's advance up the peninsula. . McClellan did so, for instance—but he wrote her once speaking about God in conventional, matter-of-fact terms and once addressing God as Jesus did before the Crucifixion. The memories of the blissful moments I have spent with you come creeping over me, and I feel most gratified to God and to you that I have enjoyed them so long.
His wife had been dead for seven years. But, O Sarah, if the dead can come back to this earth, and flit unseen around those they loved, I shall always be near you in the garish day, and the darkest night amidst your happiest scenes and gloomiest hours always, always, and, if the soft breeze fans your cheek, it shall be my breath; or the cool air cools your throbbing temples, it shall be my spirit passing by. Ruane is a general assignment reporter who also covers Washington institutions and historical topics. My question here is, was the letter famous when Sarah died? Forgive my many faults, and the many pains I have caused you. I have sought most closely and diligently and often in my heart for a wrong motive in thus hazarding the happiness of those I love, and I could find none.